I pretend I am someone who knows what I want and I what need out of life and I pretend to search for the "one" when I don't even care that much about myself, let alone someone.
I say things to my friends and family like: yes I am tired of being alone and I want a great woman to share my life.
I just have been so alone for so long I don't know how else to live.
I am not some looking guy- some Chill and good time take a look actually find me attractive and I have had plenty of girlfriends in the past but it seems like the last few years I have slipped down a where I stopped trying in every aspect in my life and I don't even know why.
I have NO why I stopped trying in everything I.
I am not happyI do want someone to hold in my arms and kiss and say I love you. I think I am lying to myself Simple sexy sensual what I actually want or need in life.
I am not a saint but I have not had sex. I feel my heart, my mind are in a battle and sometimes I feel like I put my wall up and not care if someone likes me Adult want casual sex Elton Louisiana it doesn't make sense to me on why they would like me.
I create these things and run people offI don't know anymore. I have good qualities, don't get me wrong.
I just don't know how to move forward anymore. I feel like I am blind and deaf and I am screaming for help and direction and I have no where to go.
I am a Man and I believe in God but sometimes Ralston PA adult personals feel so alone in this world and I know we are supposed to trust him, an I do but it would be nice if my father God can help me and guide me and let me know he is. I don't care if your mean, or delete this post.
I just needed it off my chest I guess.